de nacht kent vele zalen

Uitgelicht

maar angst
is een uitnodiging
voor achterkamers

waar het spel
allang begonnen
en het brozer worden
in veranderd licht

de regels heb ik nooit begrepen

zelfs hier
bij het schudden van
de opgetrokken harten en
het delen van beslotenheid
spreekt niemand over
hoe het is

gekooid te zijn

en het laaien
van onvermogen
lokale tijd

Render, Render

Het gedicht ‘Render, Render’ van Thomas Lux werd door Jeff Saunders in een korte film gevat.

RENDER, RENDER

Boil it down: feet, skin, gristle,
bones, vertebrae, heart muscle, boil
it down, skim, and boil
again, dreams, history, add them and boil
again, boil and skim
in closed cauldrons, boil your horse, his hooves,
the runned-over dog you loved, the girl
by the pencil sharpener
who looked at you, looked away,
boil that for hours, render it
down, take more from the top as more settles to the bottom,
the heavier, the denser, throw in ache
and sperm, and a bead
of sweat that slid from your armpit to your waist
as you sat stiff-backed before a test, turn up
the fire, boil and skim, boil
some more, add a fever
and the virus that blinded an eye, now’s the time
to add guilt and fear, throw
logs on the fire, coal, gasoline, throw
two goldfish in the pot (their swim bladders
used for “clearing”), boil and boil, render
it down and distill,
concentrate
that for which there is no
other use at all
, boil it down, down,
then stir it with rosewater, that
which is now one dense, fatty, scented red essence
which you smear on your lips
and go forth
to plant as many kisses upon the world
as the world can bear!

Thomas Lux